New Year - 2013 Resolutions

2013! Can you believe it? We are already 8 days in. Where does the time go. 

I decided to write out my "resolutions" for this year on here, so I can be held accountable. I cringe when I hear the word resolutions. I have made resolutions my entire life. The same ones every year. This year I will drop the weight for good. This year I will go on a date. This year I will have a dream job. This year ____ will finally like me. Some resolutions I can't do anything about, and some I would give up before even trying to do anything. 

Fear is a constant in my life, and has been since I can remember. Fear of trying and not succeeding. Fear of losing the weight and still not being happy with myself. It has been this driving force that has kept me running and never really ready to take the steps necessary to make change. But I'm tired of running. I'm tired of sitting on the sidelines and watching everyone else live their life and just being the cheerleader. I want my own life. I want in the game. This is my year! 

So why this year? I can't believe I'm actually going to write this, but this year feels different. I feel different. I have set forth resolutions for myself in all areas of my life and I can confidently say I believe I can accomplish them this year. Now, I'm not saying it's going to be an easy journey. Nothing worth it ever is. But this time next year, I refuse to look back and say I did nothing to challenge or change myself. And as the year goes on, some of the resolutions may evolve or change or simply fade, but I don't think its the resolutions that make a person change, its the attitude behind the resolution that calls for the change. 

So resolution time. 

Physically:

• I would like to lose 85 pound in the next 12 months. 
• Participate in the Warrior Dash (April)
• Run half marathon
• Run at least six 5k races
• At least 250 workouts this year 

Emotionally:

• Set up better boundaries with myself and other
• Become better about positive self talk, rather than being down on myself
• Not get caught up in others emotions
• Become better at expressing my emotions to others
• Work through being an avoider/pleaser

Financially:

• Get apartment
• Reduce my debt to income ratio
• Have at least $1,500 in my savings account by 2014
• Limit my extra spending/eating out
• Use my resources to help at least 1 person a month

Spiritually:

• Make prayer/devotion time priority
• Make prayer journal of requests/needs/answers to look back at later
• More intentional with discipleship
• At least 2 fasts this year
• Speak life into other people

Personally:

• Blog at least once a week
• Meet new people
• Go on one date
• Limit social media/cell phone when hanging out with people
• Being a better friend (I am taking ideas for how I can be a better friend- just msg me)

So there we go. Some of them are kind of vague, but if you would like the in depth explanation, feel free to contact me and I can walk you through my thought process. I really want this year to be one of growth in my life. I know that in 2012 I saw a lot of growth personally, but I want more! :)